Silence..

Hey, folks!

Sorry for being quiet for a while. At first there were a lot of things happening all at once so I didn't have the energy to write, now there's not enough happening. Now it is the time when I feel very very lonely. I have great people surrounding me but still there's something missing. Right now I'm not very pleased with myself because the loneliness is having an impact on the other parts of my life and I'm a bit afraid it is all falling apart. I think this is the time when I'm not in love with Sweden as much as I was when coming here. The honeymoon is over. Don't get me wrong- I still enjoy being here but it's not home. It's not Estonia (even though that country sucks in so many ways). I've discovered myself watching Estonian shows on youtube, listening to Estonian songs.. I'm homesick. And I especially miss the people- my family, my Merit, Liisu, my rhythm group, my Baders and my sweet little sister who's company I crave the most. Thank god I have Alyona, Kika, Tadas and Maik here to keep me above water. They do make my days!

I had a great evening yesterday. I have a lot of great moments with laughter but I still can't be entirely happy. Hopefully it passes soon! On December 23rd I'll be flying home for Christmas holidays, I'm really looking forward to it! If I'm not back on track by that time, then after the holidays I will be for sure.

I'll try to behave and write to you more!

Kram,
Eliina.


PS. Alyonka's mum visited us and yesterday her, Alyona and Tadas sang a song in Estonian. Here it is for you to enjoy (who hasn't seen it on Facebook yet):